Today I just stopped. If you’re anything like me, the word “stop” isn’t allowed into life very often, unfortunately, red lights don’t even get much respect during the rush of your schedule.
But today I went against my nature, fell down on my knees beside my bed and did nothing but breathe. But one thing didn’t stop, the bustling of this world just outside my bedroom window. It continued.
Lots of days, even though I wouldn’t explicitly come out and say it I’d like to think that this world may not operate the same without my making it early to that 2:00PM meeting, responding to the 100 daily emails, writing that blog post that is supposed to go up next week (insert sarcastic smirk here)! But wait a second...in this moment where I have chosen to be silent, not think, and just be…the birds are still whistling, cars are still passing by, and my roommates are having a conversation just a room away. Everything is okay.
Sometimes, not responding to life’s call is exactly what is needed. In those moments where we are brave enough to step away from the hustle and noise and allow silence to breakthrough, beautiful things that have been waiting for us finally catch our attention. These are the moments when wisdom and enlightenment receive the chance to sink in. These are the moments when we may remember to pray for a certain friend. These are the moments when God ponders our hearts to reflect on such things He has done for us. These are the moments when we get to remember that we need God and cannot do everything (honestly anything) ourselves.
Jesus, Himself, knew this and withdrew just as we should at times. In Luke 5 as the world outside was becoming demanding, busy, and even sought His help, how did He respond? “…and large crowds were gathering to hear Him and to be healed of their sicknesses. Jesus Himself would often slip away to the wilderness and pray.” (Luke 5:15-16)
If Jesus needed to withdraw to find rest, reflect, and seek restoration, we need it too and even more so! My good friend gave me wise perspective the other day in asking me if I’d rather be half full and serve many, or full and serve a few very well?
If we take time to fill up and restore, we will be able to give this world our best love and service. We will be able to live as good stewards with each and every breath.
Today, try something new and stop. It may feel uncomfortable at first, but I bet you it will become easier once you see what you may have been missing this entire time.
- Kesleah // @kesleahhall