I have had one heck of a summer thus far. I was supposed to have this amazing summer of fun in Nashville with my best friends that would eventually be put on pause by an awesome vacation with my family. Instead, I have been at home for the past two months, recovering from a sickness and I am finally counting down the days until I get to be in Nashville again.
These past two months have been difficult, as my family environment is not very healthy. My parents are living in anger, depression, and hatred with each other, and this trickles down to effect my siblings negatively.
I have been actively seeking God everyday. But there are still times when I feel so abandoned and hurt by my family, even God. I don’t understand why we have to live in an environment like this and it hurts when I beg God to heal my family and He doesn’t, because I know that He can.
When I allow myself to wallow in my self-pity and hurt feelings, I eventually feel unloved and uncared for. But when I turn my heart back to thanking God for the promises He has made, I can do nothing but be thankful for the God who loves me despite my circumstances.
I know that I am not the only one who ever feels this way. No matter what pain you are going through, no matter what it is caused by, we all experience this hurt sometimes.
Over the past few months, I have been highlighting every example of God’s love that I come by bright pink in my Bible. This way, these verses stand out and I can come back to them whenever I need a reminder. You are so greatly loved by an all-powerful God, and here are just a few reminders of this truth:
John 14:21: "Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him."
Psalm 63:3: "Because Your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise You."
Psalm 5:11: "But let all who take refuge in You rejoice; let them ever sing for joy, and spread Your protection over them, that those who love Your name may exult in You."
Ephesians 1:5: "He predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will."
Psalm 130:7: "O Israel, hope in the Lord! For with the Lord there is steadfast love, and with Him is plentiful redemption."
Jeremiah 31:3: "The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you."
Exodus 15:1: "You have led in Your steadfast love the people whom You have redeemed; You have guided them by Your strength to Your holy abode."
1 John 4:19: "We love because He first loved us."
Zephaniah 3:17: "The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing."
Micah 7:18-20: "Who is a God like you, pardoning iniquity and passing over transgression for the remnant of his inheritance? He does not retain His anger forever, because He delights in steadfast love. He will again have compassion on us; He will tread our iniquities underfoot. You will cast all our sins into the depths of the sea. You will show faithfulness to Jacob and steadfast love to Abraham, as You have son to our fathers from the days of old."
- Tori Enzor // Guest Contributor