Self doubt is easy. In fact it’s too natural. I know for myself, I get all excited about something and then I see someone doing the same thing, but “better.” The problem is that I automatically assume that they are better at it. Where is my confidence?
Have you ever wanted to trade places with someone just for the day to see how you acted in their eyes? To see the way you hold your body or the way your nose flares when you laugh, or to see if they even notice it. Maybe to see if they are aware of your insecurities as flagrantly as you are, not just the bumps on your skin but your bigger brokenness. To look at the way you cringe when someone says a certain word because of the bad connotation the words evokes, or how your eating has been less, or how you are sad, broken, in need of something greater.
I have come to the realization that life without hope is not truly living.
My senior year of high school, I bought The Hunger Games not realizing how fast I would devour it. I read all three books in the matter of a little over a week. Instead of binge watching on Netflix, my eyes were growing weary from words. My favorite scene, besides Katniss’ confession of who she loves (can I get a woop woop for team Peeta), was in the last book. I didn’t realize it then, but as I watched the movie it hit me: Katniss is so significant because she is a metaphor for hope. The people were so enthralled with her because she stood for light and for change. She was a promise that things were going to be different.
Katniss is not real, only a character in a book, but Jesus- He’s real and He defines light.
John 1:4-5 "And His life brought light to everyone. The light shines in the darkness and the darkness can never extinguish it"
1 John 1:5 "God is light, and there is no darkness in Him at all"
Jesus- He’s loving and a Creator. He is worthy to label you and you are labeled with beauty and crafted from His divine hand wonderfully.
Psalm 139:13-14 "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well"
Jesus- He labels you with the highest form of love: child. He calls you His child, making you, yes you, a daughter of a King.
1 John 3:1 "See how very much our Father loves us, for He calls us His children, and that is what we are!
Imagine trading places and looking through the lens of Christ. Take a second and visualize how He sees you. He looks at you full of love. He sees a daughter of purity for your sins have been washed white. He sees you, He knows everything about you, and He is craving for you to get to know Him. He is yearning for you to run to Him, arms spread wide. He is waiting and watching. Waiting for those moments when you feel broken and waiting for those moments when you feel triumphant. He is watching, cheering you on, because no matter what you do, His love is unconditional for He is love (1 John 4:7-10; 1 John 4:16). No matter what circumstance, dirt on your broken knees or head high in exalt, He is there. Our earthly eyes see only our sins and insecurities, but His eye’s, which view you through the lens of grace upon grace, sees a child in need of a Father. This is our eternal hope.
May we turn our eyes to the Lord and view our hearts as He views it. May we protect it (Proverbs 4:23) not only because of who we are, but because of the holiness that comes from being a daughter of the King of Kings. And may this realization be our hope, the hope needed to make life something worth living.
Annie // @annie_body_home