Perfection. If I rest for a moment and am honest with myself and with you, this is what I’m struggling with. Admitting this is something that is so hard for me, in fact, I have been putting off writing this post because I knew the moment my fingers would hit the keyboard God would push me off the cliff I’ve been too scared to jump. Without even noticing it I have been aiming to have it all together all the time. I’ve been putting so much pressure on myself to have the perfect grades, the perfect outfit, the perfect job, perfect relationships, the perfect gift, etc. This exhausting list continues and varies for all of us. Throughout my life I have found myself seeking perfection instead of seeking Jesus. For a while, I told myself in order for others and even God to love me I had to have it all together. Wow, I sure am grateful that is not the case. My obsession with being perfect is something that I thought I had dealt with a long time ago, but Satan knows just how bring back lies in the middle of a season where I am fearful of the future, of feeling inadequate, and realizing how big and daunting this world can be. Why do I spend so much time running after perfection anyways? Chasing after a constantly changing and world defined “perfect life” is exhausting. It is a never ending race with no finish line, no medal and certainly no water breaks. So today, I’m quitting this race. I’m finished chasing after the world and I’m running whole-heartedly to the cross. I have nothing to prove. I am beautifully and wonderfully made by the creator of the universe who has incredible plans for me. I am loved, cherished, and admired by my heavenly father who walks before me, beside me, and behind me. Join me in quitting this race. Take a water break. Rest in the presence of the Lord and admit that we cannot do this alone. It is okay to not be okay. We are not enough without Jesus.
Lauren // @laurenmouchette