It’s not about whether you choose this man or choose to be single, it’s about whether you choose Me.
Recently things have happened in my life that have made me doubt decisions and really question the path that I am on. These emotions and feelings were swirling around in my brain and I was going crazy.
I was questioning whether or not my relationship was one God called me to be in, and that was terrifying.
I began praying and praying for God to reveal to me an answer to my decision – be with this boy or not. The more I prayed, the more frustrated and confused I became. I wasn’t hearing an answer, there wasn’t a definite yes or no. He’s God, right? He knows my life, right? So, why couldn’t He just tell me what to do?
I was sitting in my car at a stop light and thinking, okay God, I’m going to put my music on shuffle and whatever song comes on will be your way of showing me the answer (so silly, I know). Good, Good Father came on by Housefires. At first, I was tempted to skip the song because how on earth was that song going to give me an answer? But it did. Right before I was about to skip to the next song they sang the line, “and you tell me that you’re pleased and that I am never alone. You’re a good, good Father.”
And I heard it. Loud and clear, I heard the Lord speaking to me: “Kaity, it’s not about whether you choose this man or not. It’s about whether or not you choose me, and I love you.”
That was my answer. Choose God. Seek God. Look up into the face of the one who created life and choose Him. It’s not about a boy. It’s always, forever and only about Jesus. The Lord spoke to my heart: as long as I truly seek His will, He will guide me.
Oh, and I've seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we're all searching
For answers only you provide
Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word.
I love to be comfortable. For me, boys have always been my safety net. They provide me with tangible love and protection when really, I should be turning towards the Lord.
He is the ultimate safety net. He is the ultimate refuge and under His wings, we will find protection.
My pastor said in a recent sermon, “being married is not the pinnacle of being a Christ-follower, finding your redemptive purpose in Jesus is.” Our purpose in life is not to find a husband. Our purpose is to live a life for the Lord. Our purpose is to seek God in all we do and He will guide us not because it’s His job but because we are His kids and He loves us.
During my pastor’s Christmas sermon, he said something that I am reminded of every time I start to doubt the Lord’s faithfulness to us or question His plan for me. He said, “isn’t it awesome that God orchestrated through man’s free will to get Mary and Joseph to Bethlehem to fulfill his prophesy? What does that mean for you and I? He’s got you. His nail-pierced hands that hold up the universe hold you.”
He’s got us.
We are too small to mess up His divine plan for our lives. All we have to do is choose Him and seek Him every day in every decision.
In all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.
-Kaity Bryant // @kaitybryant