It has been brought to my attention – like a tidal wave – that at this point in my life, I am encouraged to rise. I feel pressure from all sides telling me to be superior. The word superior, the word rise carry with them the burden of comparison. They sneer of things below me. People I should surpass. It is only my duty – societally – to be the best. To be excellent. To climb beyond the dirty mediocrity of the dreaded “norm.” Rarely is it implored that we should rise together. As one. As a group of people who know we are incomplete and imperfect.
I believe in the struggle. The push and pull. I believe in wrestling with what you thought you thought. I believe that faith is the good fight. And the only one that is necessary. There is power in your story, weakness and all.
Nothing is really easy anymore. I long to discover or recover that feeling of “yes I can.” Instead I am permanently teetering on the edge of – something. If you asked me, I couldn’t even name it. I’m chasing it, but I can’t even make out its shape. Sometimes I mistake it for you. For something you have. But I don’t. It’s an illusion. A delusion, a lie that always works on me. But it doesn’t have to. I will not compete with you. I will not grovel at the doormat of not quite good enough. Stooping on that stoop. I will not do it. I have a choice.
We spend so much time trying to figure out the name of the game and how to win it. Just be good in the name of good. Not better in the name of told you so. Not best in the name of look at me now.
There is no competition in Christ. Transformation happens only through Him. He makes us whole. And that has nothing to do with anyone else. I don’t want to live my life as a race. You and I are on the same team. I’m next to you.
I’m for you. I’ll sit with you, and we can listen to the one Who calls us all to rest.
“The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me.” // John 17:22-23
"So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men." // Philippians 2:1-7
Suzannah // @suz_joy