In(secure) Me

Look at this picture. What do you first see? The darkness in the sky? Or do you instantly marvel at the breaking of dawn? Or do you see the lights of a slumbering town?

When I took this picture, I first noticed the streak of orange. But I held my attention on the dark part of the sky because the bursting light hurt my eyes.

However, as the white, yellow, and orange rays encompassed the atmosphere; I couldn’t focus on anything else. While my eyes remained fixed on the light, the darkness retreated faster and farther. It was a glorious sight.

But last week I saw something not so glorious, and I only saw it because God shined His light on it. The Holy Spirit revealed an area of my life where I am painfully insecure.

Upon this revelation, my thoughts cascaded into a pounding waterfall, hitting the most vulnerable and previously hidden parts of me. In a flurry of emotion I called my mom asking if I could talk to a therapist. This problem seemed inescapably desperate.

Then, I remembered this picture and I realized I’m like the little town at dawn. The buildings and people in the town didn’t randomly come into existence as the light poured in. They were there the whole time, but the daylight made them easier to see. So it is with my insecurity.

This insecurity didn’t pop out of a jack-in-the-box and startle Jesus. It didn’t make Him run to someone for help in a panic. He’s seen it all along. He sees all of me all the time and is pleased to declare light on my insecurity, so there can be healing! Friends, when Jesus reveals shortcomings in our lives, He doesn’t do it to make us feel bad – He does it so we can be more like Him.

Perhaps your darkness isn’t insecurity. Maybe it’s something “worse” or “not as bad.” Whatever it is, it’s not a part of who you are called to be. Darkness and Light have nothing in common and since you are a daughter of the Light, Your Father will not stop calling the darkness out of your thoughts, words, and deeds until you emulate him in every way.

Breathe in grace.

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret. But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. This is why it is said: “Wake up, sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.
Ephesians 5:8-14

Certainly, the darkness in your life may seem encompassing, but as surely as the sun rises, the darkness flees. Even a sliver of His brilliant truth can shake insecurity, depression, or fear. So, allow Him to shine His light on the things you’d rather hide; do this, and receive healing.

-Alexis Rebennack // @alexisreb

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