Comfort. This is something that without even noticing I seek each and every day. I seek comfort in all kinds of ways. For someone who could talk to a wall, I crave the comfort of being surrounded by my closet friends and family instead of a room full of strangers. When I feel inadequate because I am the rookie, I crave to do something where I am the veteran. As humans, we all naturally desire to feel comfortable. Recently, the Lord has taught me to see the beauty in all aspects of life, the comfortable and especially the uncomfortable.
While feeling comfortable is my natural desire, I have noticed that the times I have grown the most in my life are when I am uncomfortable. I so often pray the lyrics from the song Oceans by Hillsong, "Sprit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander..."This song is my life anthem for the Lord to take me whenever and to mold me.
"But now, O Lord you are our Father; we are the clay, and you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand." Isiah 64:8.
Whenever I come before the Lord humble, vulnerable, and uncomfortable He is able to stretch and mole me more than I can ever imagine.
When the Lord provides daunting, uncomfortable opportunities, it is so easy to hesitate before I jump. It is so easy for me to be consumed with fear and to not trust the Lord. In these moments I am reminded of Gods incredible promises in Psalm 145: 18
"The Lord is near to all who call on Him. To all who call on Him in truth."
And in Psalm 63:8,
"My should clings to you, your right hand upholds me"
These two verses remind me that the Lord is upholding me in these scary moments. In these moments when I feel incapable, scared, and nervous, God is always near cheering us on.
Currently, I am feeling some of these insecurities, writing vulnerable thoughts and experiences for a national ministry that is being read by complete strangers. Definitely an uncomfortable cliff that I had to jump off of, but the Lord is teaching me the incredible power of vulnerability and the strength that comes when I seek His will. Every time I am living uncomfortably, I am releasing control to God. Doing so, I am able to feel joy like I never have before because I am worshipping Him in a new way. Releasing this control of comfort is a reminder of how much I truly need God. This awareness reminds me that every breath I take and every moment I live is from Him and should be for Him. This humility forces me to realize that I am in desperate need of God for absolutely everything.
If there is an opportunity that terrifies you, take it. God is waiting to mold you and to uphold you. Gods power is made perfect in our weakness.
Lauren // @laurenmouchette