Circumstances May Change, God Remains the Same
It almost feels like a different person is writing this blog post in comparison to the one I wrote in August. Though the one I wrote in August has very little to do with what I am talking about now, it feels as if my whole person, even right down to my spiritual life has shifted. So much has changed in a matter of a month, and though I won’t go into many details, I have seen clear examples of a constant God in all of this tumultuous change within my life. Though a lot of it was my choice, of course God has an overarching plan for each and every one of our lives. He knew these things were going to happen. I definitely made most of the decisions consciously that sit me at my present circumstances, but He wasn’t surprised by the changes.
I graduated college in May and, over the course of the summer, my plans changed radically. I now have to find out what adult Marisa’s niche is. English was my major; I have always had a gift for writing. But as much as I would like to drop everything and finish penning my great American novel, I am not financially able to. I am currently in a state of constant flux in terms of life circumstances with the only constant being support from my friends and family, their willingness to help out, and how little worrying I actually have to do. God’s unchanging presence has helped me to not hold onto anything tightly in this season of my life, especially since it’s constantly changing.
God is the same as He was when He created the universe, beforehand even, and He is the same in 2018 as he was in 1918.
He is the same today as He was yesterday- even if your yesterday was terrible and your today is great. Just recently was the anniversary of my grandmother’s death. She passed away in 2014 and not a day goes by that I don’t think about how different my life is now that she’s not in it. For some reason, this year, this particular anniversary was ridiculously hard on me. I don’t remember being this sad last year, the year before I don’t even remember what I was doing, and the year before that I was at a friend’s wedding.
The same day happens every year, September 4th , and yet each year my grief is different but you know what isn’t? God.
Each year I can guarantee I was perfectly comforted by whomever God sent my way. This year, despite it taking a harder toll on me emotionally, my comfort was my friend Allie, among other friends, who had just recently lost a grandparent herself.
I checked in with her periodically and she told me something that resonated really deep with me. She said, “I completely get how hard today is, the kind of hard that other people can understand but not experience exactly the same because no one relationship with someone special like that is the same.” She was both saying she understood how I was feeling since she too had lost a grandparent, but also that my grief was so real and couldn’t be solved with a simple encouraging text message because no one else has lived through my specific grief of losing my grandmother. I had to cling to her support and whatever else God had sent me that day amongst the other crazy changing circumstances in my life.
I say all of this to be an encouragement to you. You could be reading this and you could be on a mountaintop, and that is awesome! I don’t say any of this to guilt you into being grateful for your mountaintop but instead to remember those mountaintops when you’re in a valley and that regardless of circumstances, God doesn’t change, He sends us exactly what we need for exactly what circumstances we face. And that is amazing and freeing.
If you’re going through a valley, I want this to be an encouragement to you that your whole life will not be a giant valley. There will be a light at the end of a tunnel. God has you in this.
Marisa Williams // @marisathebibliophile
Hey y’all! I’m Marisa! I’m a twenty-two year old recent college grad from Western Kentucky University. I have a bachelor’s degree in English with a minor in Folk Studies. I’m originally from Dayton, Ohio but have lived in Bowling Green, Kentucky for the last twelve years. I like all things chocolate and ice cream related (especially chocolate ice cream), I love to write about what I’ve learned on my walk with God, and when I’m not writing, I can be found crocheting, reading, or playing my ukulele.